That said, I'm just here to share some sweetness for today. If you read my last blog post, you know that Clementine and I are still struggling in a few minor areas. One is the HAIR and one is OBEDIENCE (whereas she doesn't struggle with these things with Brad). While we still experience those struggles in addition to the normal struggles of a two-year-old, we have reached a new level of sweetness in our relationship.
During bedtime, our whole family gathers (or at least tries to) on the boys' and Clementine's bed (yes, they're all in one bed, and they like it like that). We often read books and we always pray together. (Clementine's first few prayers were approximately 20 minutes long, but they were the cutest things ever. A bunch of jabber with actual words dotted throughout: "Mommy".... "Daddy"... "Body (Brody"..."Button (Brecken)"... "MeMaw"... "PaPaw".... "Oakee (Oaklee)"... "Ah-men.")
I have never pushed too hard to be close to Clementine during these times. Even with everything going so well, she hasn't seemed interested in lying down near me before bed, and I haven't wanted to push too hard before she was ready. Cuddling before bedtime can make a kid feel pretty vulnerable, you know.
But last night Oaklee was already in bed, and when I came into the kids' room for prayers and bedtime hugs and kisses, Clementine wanted me to lie down beside her on her pillow, with her blanket.
I happily obliged and she snuggled closer until her forehead was touching mine. She peered at me through half-open eyelids, looking me over from the bottom of my chin to the top of my forehead. She began to trace the outline of my face with her tiny fingers, delicately running her fingertips along my eyebrows and down across my chin and then down my neck. I always wonder what she is thinking in moments like these. Did she get time like this with foster moms or was she placed in bed with a quick hand pat? Had she snuggled with anyone before? Had anyone ever delighted in her?
One of my very favorite verses, Zephaniah 3:17, popped into my head....
"The your God in your midst,